reanbeanmachine | This has spoilers for tocs 2 end game

[This is the kind of suffering that is truly satisfying. Crow is given a break from the electricity, allowed to shakily pull at the orbments ineffectively.

The man crouches next to him, turning Crow's face so he can examine it.]

Before we continue, have you got anything to say?

[He can't gather his thoughts enough for an intelligent response. What is he supposed to say? He doesn't remember. He has enough awareness to grab the man's arm and squeeze, but not enough to actually try to pull the hand from his face. He's not sure that's what he wants anyway. At least a gentleish touch feels more good than bad. Maybe he should lean into it instead.

Yeah he's doing that. Not with any conscious decision but simply because even though it's painfully overwhelming, it's better than the shocks.

His only answer to the question is a slight headshake. He's not trying to be defiant, he just can't formulate a response and he's afraid of saying the wrong thing.]

[He smiles, letting Crow lean into the touch, even stroking his face. Robbing him off any dignity is just as satisfying as seeing him suffer, both are vengeance but not nearly enough.]

I suppose words must be difficult for you right now. I'll give you give minutes, if you can beg for forgiveness I'll go easier on you, I can be merciful. If you can't I'll simply assume you continue to lack repentance.

I--

[He doesn't repent, though. He's not sorry for doing it. He is, however, really damned sorry he managed to piss off this kind of person. Even if he weren't, right now he can't even imagine holding onto pride. His muscles are still twitching from shocks, his whole body is trembling with sensory overload, and he can't make sense of up or down, let alone right or wrong.

Just existing is too much. He wants to claw his skin off but that'd just make the dizzying painpleasure worse. He wishes his heart would stop. It feels like it's on the verge of it already.

He tries, out of residual resilience, to sit up. Putting his hand on the floor and pushing is in itself agonizing, and he whines shakily, but he does manage to get slightly up off the ground. Slightly, before moving is too much. Every brush of cloth and chains sends a jolt down his spine. The rough concrete pressing into his hand is like pushing against needles. It feels like his body is devouring itself. Like there's molten metal in his veins, and even that feels good.

He can't make it. He folds within seconds, hitting the floor again and curling in on himself even though it's not protecting him from anything at all.]

I'm sorry...

[He'll be a pain again later. Right now he just can't. He'd do nearly anything to make it stop.]

[It's nice, honestly. Mercy is hardly going to be merciful but it will feel better than his other plans at least. He gestures to the waiting helpers, staying beside Crow as more people crowd around and start touching him, pulling his clothes aside.

Hands roam across his skin and haul him up between them, spreading his legs as someone settles there, more men around him taking their dicks out and getting Crow's shackled hands and lips in on the action.]

[This is not the mercy he was looking for. Not at all. Touch is torture, but Crow doesn't have the strength to do more than try, weakly, to wriggle away from it. He can't, though. Moving away from one hand presses him against another, which feels amazing, and he's crying hysterically again in moments. He needs this so badly but he hates it just as much.

Being afraid, feeling violated, those feelings are definitely there, but they're second to sheer physical suffering. He's aware enough not to claw or bite, lest it makes things worse, but he's not really thinking about humiliation. He's just reacting to sensation, the assault on his nerves that's all mixed up and confusing and overwhelming any scraps of sanity he can find in himself.

He can't beg with his mouth full but the urge is still there. The problem is, this particular torture has him unsure whether to beg for it to stop or beg for more.]

[It helps, sort of. It at least relieves pressure, feeds the need Crow is suffering. It doesn't quite help enough, but it's good in a physical way normal sex never could be, good in an artificial and enhanced way, but empty of anything but malice.

He's passed around like this for a few hours, at some point electric shocks are introduced into it again, some number of hours later.]

[He does, ultimately, end up begging for more. He also does actually pass out, more than once, if only for a few seconds. It's incredibly good but that's too much, too. And when he starts to regain awareness knowing it's good just makes him even more miserable. He's going to remember it -- some of it fuzzily, but he knows very well what happened and how he caved.

When they're done he feels like so much gutter slime. He's beyond exhausted, beyond traumatized, and even when the drugs wear off he can hardly move, just because his whole body is so completely worn out. He has no voice left to whine -- he lost that an hour or two ago -- but even if he had one he wouldn't be complaining. He feels too awful. Too humiliated, and hurt, and scared, and vulnerable. He's finding himself so utterly terrified of more that he's just making himself as small and unobtrusive as possible. As if by staying down, keeping his face hidden in his arms on the floor and only breathing as shallowly as he can, he'll avoid further harm. As if he isn't entirely aware that this whole sick situation was designed specifically for him, and that these people want nothing more than to hurt him as much as possible.

He wants to be rescued right now. It's a pathetic thought that he's cursing himself for. Crow is strong. He does things on his own. He doesn't need Rean, or Vita, or anyone, to get where he wants to go. Normally, anyway. Right now being alone feels hopeless and horrible, and as much as he wants to stand by himself he knows he can't. He's stuck. So he really wants to see them, with such intensity that he almost starts to cry again. He doesn't, though. If nothing else he's determined to control any tiny bit of himself that he can. He couldn't not react before, he can't stop these people from doing what they want to him, so he's fiercely determined to grab onto any little scrap of agency left.

That's basically just the whole not crying thing though. The rest is out of his hands.]

[He's left to wallow in his misery and gross filth for a while, and then more hands drag him up and strip his bandages, he's hosed down, though not so roughly his wounds will open, dried and wrapped in blanket. Clothes would require unshackling him, and it's not like he needs the dignity of being covered, just given enough warmth to keep from getting sick.

He's left with cold soup and water in a wooden bowl and cup, no spoon, and once again he gets to spend some time alone on his chains to recover from the events of the day.]

[The blanket and food feel nothing but insulting. He doesn't want to be taken care of by people who're going to undo it all tomorrow. He wants to throw it all away, but he doesn't actually want to die. He wants to believe that with all their stubbornness and power, his friends will find him. Rean will burst in with Class VII behind him, or Vita will pop out of nowhere, or if he's lucky someone will bomb the whole building-- Okay yeah he'd be fine with dying as long as these fuckers go with him.

None of that has happened yet though, so he grudgingly downs the soup and water and huddles under the blanket. On the bright side, he's so exhausted it's not too hard to sleep. In fact he's out the instant he lets himself relax a little.]

[He's woken at some point, no windows make time hard to track. But the men are back, and he's being pulled up and out of his cage.]

Do you feel more repentant today, criminal?

[It makes him feel pathetic, but he hangs on to the blanket even when he's pulled on. He's still sore and worn, so his legs are wobbly and he'd really just rather go back to sleep.]

Do I look it?

[It'd be wiser to just agree, but being agreeable didn't help yesterday. They weren't any less cruel, so why should he debase himself even more? Unfortunately he can't really look cool when he's clinging to a blanket and his voice is a tired rasp.]

I see mercy is wasted on you.

[That's fine. Crow is even left with his blanket for now as the man arranges things on a table.]

You will not be given a second chance to repent today.

Mercy my ass. "Repenting" didn't get me shit from you yesterday.

[He's paying close attention to the table. Exhaustion isn't at all going to stop him from trying to be difficult. If there's anything he can reach... Hell, he's considering using his shackles to throttle someone.]

You were treated quite gently. But if you require comparison, that's fine as well.

[There are whips and syringes, more strange orbments in various forms. The man nods to his helpers and they approach Crow, to pull the blanket off and force him to his knees.]

[He doesnt resist being pushed down. He tries to make it look like he's resisting a little though. The goal is to get the men holding him to underestimate him a little, so he has a better chance of fighting what's coming. He knows he can't win but he does want to hit back on his way down.]

[He's being held firmly but maybe not too firmly. In any case the main guy is approaching with... Tape? Which he's going to use to tape Crow's eyes open.]

[Tape. Not something he can fight back with, but definitely something concerning. He lets it happen though, leaning away just a bit for token resistance.]

[It doesn't do enough to keep him from getting his eyelids taped to keep them from closing, and the man steps back to inspect that Crow can't blink before retrieving a needle and returning to jab that into the white of Crow's left eye, injecting it with a liquid that seems to burn but not with the pleasure of yesterday.

The pain seems to seep straight into his brain from his eye, as the needle is pulled out and the man's thumb brushes over Crow's exposed eye like a caress.]

If I understand this drug correctly it will stimulate all your senses. Not as an aphrodisiac, simply an enhancement of everything you perceive. Light. The air on your skin. Noise. Pain. Pleasure too, if you happen to feel any.

[See the idea was to break free and grab the syringe. He tries, too. Screw that, he'd rather make this guy suffer too, even if it means worse punishment later.

Win or lose tho he wants the tape off first, so he's going for it as soon as he can get his hands free.]

[He struggles just in time to grab for the needle and uh, break it off in his own eye. The men by him get him back under control quickly, startled by his outburst, and the man in charge raises his eyebrow as he leans close to examine the damage.]

I can't promise you won't lose that eye.

[Well, he tried. He kind of regrets it, but not enough to not plan on doing it again later. If he can just turn it on them once he'll feel less useless.

He can't say he isn't really frightened to lose an eye. But if he does it'll have happened because he fought back, so it'll be worth it. The pain is worth it. So is spitting in the man's face.]

You'll lose worse if you're not real careful, bastard.

I can't say I don't prefer this of you, criminal.

[It's nice to see Crow isn't so broken there isn't more fight to break out of him. For now he just nods to the men restraining Crow and they haul his arms up and back, restricting him further.]

Now, for today...

[The torture is gradual ramping up flogging followed by more electroshocks with another intermission in drowning. The drug does, as promised, enhance ever sensation about tenfold.]

[There would be a lot more screaming if his voice wasn't totally shot from all the screaming yesterday. As it is there's plenty of struggling and writhing and crying, but he also won't stop cursing and being generally rude. As long as he can think, he's feisty. It's only when there's too much to think through that he cracks. But even then, as soon as he comes to his senses he's up again. Crow is really a difficult person to break.

He kind of hates that he hopes they take care of that eye. It'll be a worthy loss but he'll have a harder time killing everyone in this room without depth perception.]

[His eye does get treated at least, with the rest of his injuries. No one is too concerned with making sure it stays in top condition, but it would be inconvenient if it got infected.

Torture starts to take on patterns. Never really predictable but a certain amount of repeat. Days where Crow is forced to take three or five times the normal dose of that pleasure drug alternate with days where he isn't drugged at all, usually, though once they keep him strung out on a cocktail of drugs for a week. Some days he's asked to repent and some he isn't even spoken to at all, simply acted upon.

They start playing back the recordings of his worse moments for him at night; the times he begs or cries are displayed for him to go to sleep to, played in sequence and looped.]

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