This has spoilers for tocs 2 end game

[reanbeanmachine]

[Crow's wounds required immediate treatment, and while he was in the care of Heimdallr's hospital something went... Wrong. Word got out somehow who he was, leader of that terrorist group, the sniper whose bullet set off the war. Some bribes, some shady dealings, and before the intelligence agency or RMP could react, he was home from his room.

Luckily for Crow by the time he's kidnapped he's in stable condition, and his captors want him to recover, so he's been transported carefully. Where he finds himself though, well that's hard to say when he wakes up chained to a bed in a featureless room with no windows, and a drain on the floor. At least his bandages are fresh.]

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[awakenerd]

[Oh. Well that makes him. Stop. And stare at Crow because he never really considered that way. He's not stupid he's just... He's Rean. And while he'd charge into danger without a thought to save Crow it really doesn't occur to him that it's something that upsets Crow. He's been told before that it's... Arrogant, but there's a difference between arrogance and actively hurting someone he only wants to shield from harm.] ...Then what am I supposed to do? If I can't protect you this way, how am I supposed to keep you safe? I understand what you're saying Crow, but I can't be okay with you going back because I feel the same way! I can't stand the idea of letting you be hurt for another minute! I can't deal with being helpless.

[filetofish]

I already can't be fixed.

[He doesn't want Rean to be sad, but it is what it is. This is why he shouldn't have come here. It should have been enough to see him from a distance, but he just had to get close one more time.]

It's too late to help me, so just do your job and let me do mine.

[awakenerd]

...That's one thing I can't do. If you don't want to stay here I'm not going to make you. I'll get you Ordine back, and the freedom to leave Erebonia if that's what you want, but you're not going back to be in anyone's power, not Osborne's, not mine. Just... Give me a few days to get you Ordine.

[filetofish]

It's just a job, Rean.

[Probably not a convincing thing to say when he's freaking out so much about Rean doing it but hey.]

They're not going to lock me up. Like I said yesterday, I can do what I want if I follow the rules. It's not that I'm not allowed to be around you, I just... didn't want to get my mess all over you. So I was only going to see you this once. But, honestly, I'd feel better if they did lock me up.

[awakenerd]

No one is locking anyone up and you're not going back to this "just a job".

If you stayed I'd... Be really happy. I'm just saying you don't have to, either. I'm going to get my way so you don't have to do anything. You can do what you want.

[Barring misbehaving, but that shouldn't need spelling out.]

Just... Trust me. I'll manage.

[filetofish]

...No.

[He's so tired and this conversation is going in circles so fast it's making him dizzy. Really dizzy. Or maybe that's the whole horribly mistreated body thing. It's a mystery.]

If I can really do what I want, then don't tell me what to do in the same breath.

[awakenerd]

...Fine. Then I'll figure out what to do and you can change your mind about it when you're doing better.

I'm going to make breakfast, and then I need to head to the capital to talk to people. Don't... Go anywhere, okay?

[filetofish]

[It's clear he's not going to win this one. Crow could leave and go back on his own right now and it still wouldn't stop Rean.

He wants to scream. There's so much he could say, that he wants to say, but it feels useless, so he keeps it to himself.]

...Okay.

[He's deflated again. He wants to keep arguing but he's tired, and in pain (he'll never not be, now), and too afraid of everything to do so effectively. He can't argue that he can handle himself when it took all his mental strength to travel here without melting down from being in public. He hasn't even told Rean that and he's already beaten, so... So. He fucked up, and now he's just going to retreat to his room so he can cry without Rean seeing it.

He feels so weak. He hates it. He wants to die.]

[awakenerd]

[He makes breakfast, bringing up a tray and leaving it by Crow's door before getting dressed himself. He calls Valimar to come watch the dorm, for Crow's safety, then heads out.

On the train he calls Jusis and they talk for a little while.

His discussion with he intelligence division is easier than he hoped. His agreement to any job and to play up the war hero he's been declining, along with agreeing that Crow's his responsibility and the assurance that the acting lord of kreuzen province is willing to help look after Crow, earns him Ordine's release, scheduled up be delivered to Bareahard by the end of the week. He has that long to get his things in order too, before his first mission briefing.

It's actually still mid afternoon by the time he's back, bringing in food from the cafe and knocking on Crow's door.]

[filetofish]

[The knock makes him jump, but at least Rean can't see it. Crow is determined to hide as much as he can, so Rean won't feel the need to make any more dumb decisions for his sake.

He's visibly tired answering the door, though, and he hasn't touched the breakfast Rean left. He ate a little junk food this morning and that's clearly enough.]

...Welcome back.

[awakenerd]

Thanks. Mind if I come in?

[He's so worried but if he doesn't treat Crow a little normal than isn't that just worse? He holds the package up, it smells appetizing, or it should. ]

I'm pretty hungry. You?

[filetofish]

[It does smell nice... Crow's not so sure though. On the one hand he hasn't gotten much pleasant food lately, but on the other eating just makes him nauseous at this point so he's been avoiding it.

He supposes it doesn't matter. He wants to be around Rean, so he'll deal with the inevitable fussing.]

Mm. You can come in if you want.

[Crow's moving out of the doorway, just to go flop on his bed.]

[awakenerd]

[Coming in and sitting next to Crow, unpacking the food and handing some over.]

Eat up, while it's still hot.

[filetofish]

[Crow ought to be agreeable. If he wants Rean to think he's still capable, he can't just go all listless. So reluctantly he takes his share and starts to cautiously pick at it.

It's the worst. It tastes good, and nostalgic, and he wants to shovel it all into his mouth at once, but he can't trust his own body to handle it if he did. He kinda wants to cry, but he's stubborn so instead he's nibbling at it with a blank expression.]

Thanks.

[awakenerd]

[He's trying not to creepily watch Crow every second so he starts eating himself.]

Want to play Blade tonight? I'm taking the week off from class.

[filetofish]

[!

You have his attention, Rean.]

Sure.

[There are some things he'll still perk up for, it turns out.]

[awakenerd]

[That's a relief. And all Rean really wants to do is spend time with Crow being normal, for as long as they can. ]

Don't think I'll go easy on you.

[filetofish]

I'd be insulted if you did.

[He knows things aren't going to be okay. He knows, but it'll be easier on Rean if Crow can make himself look functional. So he smiles, even while he sits there barely eating, looking like he got run over.]

[awakenerd]

[They can talk more about serious things tomorrow. It's already been a stressful enough day, so Rean gently bullies Crow into eating a little more, if he can, before breaking out the Blade deck. ]

[filetofish]

[He does eat a bit more -- not a lot but more than crumbs, so it counts. He shows some enthusiasm for Blade, too. He smiles, and laughs, and for a little while it almost feels like everything is okay again. Like they were never apart.]

[awakenerd]

[It's almost painful, how much he wants this to last forever, to never have been taken away. He keeps them both up late, not wanting to sleep, but eventually it's time to turn in. ]

Is it okay if I stay in here?

[filetofish]

Eeh... I want you to, but I might freak out on you if I actually sleep.

[Nightmares and all that. Things he's trying to pretend got better while he was gone when they didn't at all.]

[awakenerd]

That's fine.

[It's not like he thinks Crow isn't a completely mess.]

[filetofish]

[Rean's so good. Crow doesn't deserve his patience but he wants it, so he'll do his best not to make it harder. Right now that means keeping laughing.]

I might do other things too.

[awakenerd]

[He's not clueless in the context, but he is going to stare Crow straight in the eyes.]

Do you want to?