reanbeanmachine | This has spoilers for tocs 2 end game

I can wait outside if you want.

[But going out the door is the furthest he's willing to go, and only that much because there's literally no other exit to this room, not even an air duct to crawl through.]

Fine.

[Not fine but if it gives him some space he'll take it. He needs to destroy any recordings that haven't been taken away yet, for one.]

Just go.

[There's a lot he wants to say and do, like hug Crow, but he nods and steps back, giving Crow room as he heads out the door. He crosses his arms and leans against the wall by the door to wait. Unfortunately for Crow the RMP is real efficient so plenty of the recordings are already gone, but there's still some things he can smash, and clothes to put on. And an empty room of trauma to wreck all he wants before he has to go out and face Rean waiting for him.]

[Oh he's absolutely going to wreck it. Once Rean is gone he very calmly gets dressed, then picks up something hefty and just starts smashing. He doesn't give a single fuck if the RMP considers this evidence. Anything left in this room is going to be left in tiny pieces, even if it means giving himself more cuts and scrapes punching and stepping on things.

So there's a lot of breaking things noises. And also a lot of yelling because he has a lot of steam to blow off. He's not saying anything worth listening to he's just cursing and screaming and generally being a disaster.]

[Claire looks unhappy but she doesn't say anything. Rean just bows his head and listens, fists clenched, waiting out whatever Crow needs to do in there. He really doesn't know everything but the glimpse he had is bad enough, and being stuck here, in the hallway, while the RMP finish processing the arrests and the evidence and Crow vents and Rean has nothing to do but feel useless is pretty draining. But all he can do is wait, and talk quietly to Claire when she walks over.

On his insistence they'll give Crow to Class VII instead of arresting him. As long as Rean or a member of Class VII is with him 24/7.]

[He takes awhile. He has to smash everything, and hit the unsmashable things until his knuckles bleed. After that he has to take a moment to break down crying, overwhelmed by emotion that hurts every bit as bad as the torture had.

He does eventually come out. He's puffy-eyed and bleeding here and there and he leans heavily on the doorframe, but he's upright and that's doing pretty well. He's tired. The only reason he can move this much is adrenaline. He really ought to be on a stretcher but instead he's gesturing with the metal pipe in his hand, with raw pain and fury and nothing else in his eyes.]

Where are they?

[Rean is pushing away from the wall turning to look at Crow as soon as the door opens. But Claire is the one to answer first, frowning.]

They're in the RMP's custody. Which you would be, if Class VII hadn't made every case to have you back. I understand you're under a lot of strain right now, but you should go with your classmates.

[His anger is tempered just a little bit when he looks at Rean, because underneath the horror Crow absolutely adores Rean. Claire on the other hand he'd gladly have shot before all this so it's a real wonder he doesn't start swinging. It's not remotely hard to tell he wants to.]

Look, Lady Ironblood, I don't give a damn about due process. This isn't about you. I'm not pressing charges so unless they were doing something that's actually your business you should fuck off. And leave the tapes.

[He's not waiting for an answer. He's unsteady on his feet but he's still taking off to search for murder targets.]

[This is already going really not so great. Rean can't say he's not with Crow in wanting to hurt people right now but that's exactly why they can't. He steps in Crow's way, holding his arm out to block Crow as if his body weren't doing that enough.]

Crow. You can't. Leave them to the RMP. I know you're hurting and I know you want to pay them back, I do too and I haven't been the one suffering here. But if you go after them, Captain Claire is going to have to arrest you, and I don't think you need that right now. So just stop and come back with me.

Don't talk to me like I don't know what I'm doing!

[No way. Crow is not at all receptive to being talked down.]

This is their idea of justice. They don't care about the police so they're not going to be protected by them. End of story.

It doesn't matter what they think, Crow! Or how they'd do things. We're not them, you're not either. So we're not going to do things their way. We're not doing things lawlessly! Even if you get past me the RMP will arrest you before you get anywhere! So just for once in your life do things my way.

Hah! You really think I'm more like you than them? That's rich.

[He uses the pipe to shove Rean out of the way and try to walk past.]

If the RMP wants to defend these bastards they can try. I'm sure they'd love an excuse to take me down. Aidios knows they're probably jerking off to those recordings right now.

[Rean is a lot harder to brush aside than that, Crow should know by now. He's getting in Crow's way, again, this time, planting his hand ont he wall and setting his feet so Crow can't walk past without actually attacking him.]

No one is defending them. They're going to be brought to justice. Lawfully. I don't know exactly what happened, but I'm the last person who's going to sit aside and let them get away with hurting you.

But I'm not letting you do this, either. Even if I want really badly to help you right now, that would make us no better than them.

I'm already no better, in case you forgot.

[He can't bring himself to swing at Rean. Still, being stopped just makes him anxious. If he can't take out his feelings on the people who hurt him then they're going to boil over.]

You've done things I don't agree with. But I don't think for a second you're anything like the people who hurt you. Come home, please. I'm not moving anyway. so you might as well.

[He's stubborn, and patient, and mostly trying to keep the great amounts of distress he feels from showing, but it's still there, his concern and care for Crow obvious in his expression and voice, the upset he feels at this whole situation and even the relief to see Crow alive, tempered by his anger at how bad Crow looks.]

[He almost does hit Rean. He's not against fighting him, obviously, and he wants through. But after all that's happened he just can't. He missed him too much.

But if he can't kill those people then what does he do with his emotions? They're too much. He gives. He's nust going to sit on the floor.]

...I'm still not pressing charges. It's not their business.

[He doesn't want to be the victim in a trial. Talking to the cops sounds awful.]

Then I will, or Captain Claire will. There's more than enough evidence without you.

[He crouches down, in front of Crow, wanting so badly to just hug him tightly right now. He hasn't even seen the footage Claire recovered, but he's sure it's not good, just from what they learned on their way here.]

Thank you.

[For listening to him. And now... Now he is going to hug Crow, even if Crow doesn't want it.]

I was so scared when you vanished, I'm so glad we found you, I'm sorry it took us so long.

[He definitely doesn't want the hug. As soon as Rean moves in Crow tenses up and leans away. He tries to scoot backwards out of it but failing that he just... freaks out. He can't stand being touched or restrained anymore. His body has gotten too used to pain, so that's what it assumes he should be feeling.

It actually hurts. His attitude flips like a switch -- as soon as Rean touches him Crow starts struggling, shoving at Rean and outright biting any bare skin in range.]

[He doesn't force the hug, letting go as soon as Crow struggles, though he still gets bitten hard enough to bleed. He doesn't care about that at all, it's the fact that Crow went wild and feral just from a hug that has his eyes watering with tears. He hates this. He hates that he wasn't here in time. That bad things happened because he wasn't strong enough.]

I'm sorry.

[He says softly, staying still, watching Crow and wishing he could hug him more, hug the light of mad wildness out of his eyes.]

I won't touch you. But let's go home.

Not. Happening.

[He's so upset it takes effort to think. Partly because of the hug but also because he's mad at himself for looking like a mess in front of Rean, and mostly because he's just terrified and furious at not being allowed to end this his way.]

If you really think I'm going to leave with you like a grateful damsel you're out of your mind! This is my problem. I'm not going to let you humiliate me all over the Imperial Chronicle just so you feel like the good guy.

[He doesn't want it. He'd honestly rather die than cooperate. He just knows there's going to be a reporter outside waiting to capitalize. He knows arresting and trying the culprits would mean Aidios knows how many people seeing the recordings, and public conversation about whether or not Crow deserved it. He also knows he shouldn't have made himself a national villain if he wanted to stay out of the spotlight but it's too late for that now, so he's just going to fight what he can fight. Which right now is Rean.]

[He closes his eyes and takes a steadying breath. Fighting Crow isn't new. He just thought they were done with it. But it's also his own fault for not being there to protect Crow in the first place, and he can't make this mess go away and he also can't let Crow murder anyone when he's managed to get a limited amount of freedom arranged for Crow, with conditions. Saying "I'm stopping you from revenge for your own good" won't go over, but it's the truth.]

If you think I'm doing this for fame than you don't know me at all.

Whether you like it or not, your problems are my problems. They're Class VII's problems. So we're going to get you out of here and work on this together.

If you have something you want to do that I can help you with, I will, but I can't let you murder anyone, no matter how much they may deserve it.

Yeah, sure, whatever.

[If he keeps lashing out at Rean then he doesn't have to lash out at himself, so, y'know, this is obviously the right course of action. He's also getting back up off the floor because he feels small there and he wants to be taller than Rean right now.]

I don't think you wanna be famous. You just want to think you did the right thing. But I've got news for you, helping the RMP pursue this isn't that. I'll stand down if I have to but if you leave it in their hands I'll never forgive you.

[It's not even about the murder, really. He definitely wants to murder but what's more important is not being exposed. Crow honestly couldn't make himself stand under that magnifying glass if he wanted to, now. He's so scared of it he's shaking, just at the idea of seeing a camera.]

Then what do you want me to do?

[He can't let Crow take this into his own hands and hushing things up is not even in Rean's top ten list of "things I think about" so he's at a slight loss as to how he's supposed to approach this. The threat of never being forgiven isn't the problem either, because if Crow wouldn't forgive him, that would hurt forever, but he'd still stick to his principles to keep Crow safe.

But even standing and angry Crow looks beaten down and scared and Rean wants to help, he just doesn't know how.]

[He should believe that Rean will do what he asks, if it's not ridiculous. He really should, and part of him does, but he's so keyed up and scared and angry it's hard to get it together enough to just say what he wants. It's like even admitting what the problem is is going to bring something down on his head.]

I want--

[Hm. It seems the words are stuck. He has to stop and breathe, slowly, to keep himself from hyperventilating. There's a voice in the back of his head, echoing "What do you want?", and actually the answer is the same as it's been the whole time. He wants to stop feeling horrible. He can't do that, but at least he can keep himself from crying when no one's even touching him.]

...Tell them to drop it. Let the bastards go, I don't care. Just drop the case and give me back the evidence.

[He's kind of shocked but on the other hand this is better than "let me murder them all" so he rakes his fingers through his hair and nods.]

I'll see what I can do.

[Which is Rean for "if it's at all remotely possible I'll make sure it happens" but you know. He'll do his best. He doesn't know if the RMP will listen but he thinks Claire will, so he has high hopes he can give Crow what he wants. Not this second, the men are already being taken into custody and the evidence is already being bundled away and Crow needs a doctor or someone to look at his injuries. But he'll see to it, he has that determined look.]

Is there anything else?

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