Rean Schwarzer ([personal profile] reanbeanmachine) wrote2018-07-01 11:11 pm

gross au

[Once upon a time, perhaps, a man named Giliath Osborne had been a good man, a kind father, a loving husband, a good soldier. That was a long, long time ago, long forgotten. These days, there was merely the Blood and Iron Chancellor. A man hellbent on a goal, ready to use everything to achieve it.

Currently, the latest tool from his little workshop was standing in his office facing him with a familiar face, but an unfamiliarly blank expression.

"Siegried" was the name of the doll in front of him, a creature with uses. Already, standing in front of Osborne was plenty of proof that this boy was only a shell that resembled a person, an empty vessel whose memories were sealed away.

He ran his fingertips over the boy's cheek, watching for any reaction, any flinch or concealed disgust. Nothing. Obedience. Perfect.

There was more he could test for this, and if that proved successful, this doll could be useful in very many ways indeed. His fingers lifted a lock of white hair, let it slide over his knuckles as he pulled his hand away.]

Siegfried, I want you to kneel.

[personal profile] awakenerd 2018-11-02 09:55 am (UTC)(link)
[He makes a grumpy reverb noise and pins Crow's wrists, which may not be great for Crow but on the other hand all he's doing is looking at him.]
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[personal profile] filetofish 2018-11-02 09:59 am (UTC)(link)
[It's not fun. He would have liked this two years ago but it's making his stomach knot and his heart race now, in a bad way. He makes a token effort to free himself but he's not trying super hard and even if he did he's too worn to reach his usual strength. Besides, his wrists are bruised already so it kinda makes it worse to struggle.]

What are you doing?

[personal profile] awakenerd 2018-11-02 10:09 am (UTC)(link)
[Obviously no answer but at least all Rean does is flop on top of Crow and make grumpy noises. Just. Large dog lays on top of the entire Crow.

Maybe if he keeps Crow squished Crow won't leave.]
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[personal profile] filetofish 2018-11-02 10:15 am (UTC)(link)
[Ah. Well, as long as Rean will let him Crow will deal with this by cuddling him. For a few minutes anyway.]

You really are surprisingly cute...

[personal profile] awakenerd 2018-11-02 10:19 am (UTC)(link)
[If he's a heavy enough cat will you stay home from work?!]

[personal profile] filetofish 2018-11-02 10:22 am (UTC)(link)
[He wishes! He would like to not go ever, but blackmail's quite the motivator so he does try to get up after a bit.]

I'd love to pet you all day, Rean, but I gotta get ready.

[personal profile] awakenerd 2018-11-02 10:23 am (UTC)(link)
[Not moving. Nope. Growling a little though.]

[personal profile] filetofish 2018-11-02 10:28 am (UTC)(link)
Can you maybe not make me fight you every day? I've got enough to worry about.

[He sighs, pushing at Rean and trying to get out from under him.]

[personal profile] awakenerd 2018-11-02 10:32 am (UTC)(link)
[He's difficult. Eventually Crow might be able to move him at which point he gets up and crates himself again, obviously upset.]

[personal profile] filetofish 2018-11-02 10:45 am (UTC)(link)
[Crow really doesn't like to make Rean so upset but, y'know, no choice. So he'll just be grateful that Rean's crating himself and not fighting Crow the whole way.

Still it's kinda weird to get clean and dressed and fed while Rean's hiding. But he does, and then off he goes. It's just gonna continue like this indefinitely, honestly. Crow going to work and coming home tired and sore and sometimes drugged up. He keeps encouraging Rean to bite him, even though he faints every time, and after awhile that's just the routine. Honestly he's started to look forward to the biting, because it feels great and when he passes out from blood loss he sleeps too hard to dream.

Meanwhile outside their little corner of misery the world is going to hell. But somewhere out there, their friends are fighting. They should join them but after a month or so Crow's too physically worn down to fight and too worn down emotionally to try. They've been under the radar long enough that they might be able to escape, but the truth is Crow's so fucked up now he'd rather hide forever than face potentially losing himself again. The more he gets hurt and the more drugs he takes the more afraid and scatterbrained he gets.]

[personal profile] awakenerd 2018-11-02 11:51 am (UTC)(link)
[It's difficult because any time Rean seems almost like he's recovering himself Crow is... Just getting worse, which spikes Rean's madness right on into overdrive all the time.

And yet he still keeps biting Crow, because that's... All he can do to live.

One night though, he leaves. It's not like Crow locks him up in the evening, it's not like Crow even can when Rean drains him nightly.

Crow will wake up without being stared at, for the first time in over a month.]
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[personal profile] filetofish 2018-11-02 04:11 pm (UTC)(link)
[He's so used to waking up to Rean now that he's startled when he's not being stared at. He wakes up all at once, sitting up and crawling to the edge of the bed to look over the edge of the loft.]

--Rean?!

[He's not thinking about the trouble Rean could cause. He's worried about someone hurting him. About someone taking him away while Crow's too out of it to stop them.]

[personal profile] awakenerd 2018-11-02 04:18 pm (UTC)(link)
[Rean's not there. No answering growl, no even presence. He's straight up not home.]
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[personal profile] filetofish 2018-11-02 04:30 pm (UTC)(link)
[He's still a mess from yesterday but Crow's not taking the time to get ready for his day. Work is not on his mind. He's just gotta find Rean, so he's scrambling down the stairs despite still being woozy, pulling his shoes on, and taking off out the door.

He doesn't know where to look. If someone took Rean he could be anywhere. Without a direction he can't just run, so to start he's walking down their street, keeping an eye out for clues and calling Rean's name.]

Rean! Rean...!
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[personal profile] awakenerd 2018-11-02 04:40 pm (UTC)(link)
[[Calling Rean's name does not... Magically make him appear, alas. No barking either, or, growling, nothing to lead Crow to his lost feral pet.

Except luck, because eventually Crow will turn down and alley towards his "job" and find Rean just. There.

He's not in great shape. His clothes are a mess of. Things. Tears and fluids, a lot of which are blood and some of which are definitely not. He's bruised and sitting on the ground at the end of a trail of blood that stretches towards a door and into the dark beyond it.

He also looks fucked up and high, but mostly, he looks like he committed a massacre.

Which is funny because he did.]
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[personal profile] filetofish 2018-11-02 04:53 pm (UTC)(link)
[This is... the opposite of what Crow wanted to find, but something close to what he was afraid he might. For a moment Crow just stands there taking it in, as his eyes go bigger and his face loses colour. But then he's breaking into a run, slipping on some kind of alleyway grossness and falling to his knees right near Rean. He has to drag himself the last couple of feet, but then he's right there, looking Rean over but afraid to touch, so his hands just hover, shaking.

He's so angry. He's furious enough to make his blood boil, but he's even more afraid. He's scared of what kind of bad memories this is giving Rean, but mostly he's scared of what's going to happen to them both now.]

Rean--

[His voice cracks, but he's refusing to cry. Just like he's been this whole time, he's trying not to show exactly how bad he feels -- even though it's obvious he's failed to hide it.]

Why-- I was protecting you!

[And he was trying so hard. So why did they take Rean... or why did Rean leave on his own? Either way, it's making all Crow's efforts useless and that's going to really, really mess with him once the adrenaline wears off.]

[personal profile] awakenerd 2018-11-02 04:56 pm (UTC)(link)
[Whatever the case it's not like Rean can tell Crow, but he can lean on him, even if Crow's too afraid to touch.

He's a very tired, fucked up monster, he's not hungry, at least, he won't be hungry for a while, in fact, he's very, very full. But he's. Tired. Or maybe that's the amount of drugs in him. Either way he's nuzzling Crow's shoulder so he seems to be fine...?]

[personal profile] filetofish 2018-11-02 05:04 pm (UTC)(link)
[At least if Rean's being snuggly that means it's safe to touch. Crow can hug him, and he's going to do so as tight as he can (which is nowhere near as tightly as before all this mess). He's dirty and smelly himself so he doesn't care about getting dirtier as he holds Rean close and buries his face in his hair.

He won't cry but his breathing is panicked and his whole body is trembling from stress. What should he do now? Where can they go? He doesn't know how many people Rean killed or if the ones in charge were among them but he knows they almost certainly can't stay here. But getting them out of town is honestly way scarier a prospect than continuing this ugly lifestyle was, so Crow is... well. Losing it, honestly. He's so scared, and angry, and guilty. This is all his fault. He got Rean into this and he failed to do anything to protect him, and he's not sure he can save him from the consequences of that failure.

He really doesn't care what happens to him, as long as it isn't losing his memories again. But Rean... He really just wanted Rean to be safe.]

I'm so sorry...

[Here he is again like the first day, spilling barely-audible apologies all over Rean and feeling like he should never have been revived.]

[personal profile] awakenerd 2018-11-02 05:09 pm (UTC)(link)
[Rean gets that Crow is upset though not really why. Look he's crazy and he's high as fuck and nothing seems that upsetting at all right now. He nuzzles Crow in an attempt to be like, soothing? Mane he doesn't know, he just wants a nap, nothing is bad right now, except Crow being unhappy, that sucks. He thought he took care of whatever what going on maybe he'll have to kill more people after a nap.]

[personal profile] filetofish 2018-11-02 05:14 pm (UTC)(link)
[You tried to fix it and you made it worse, Rean!! Crow's absolutely lost in panic, but he knows they can't just sit on the ground and wait for soldiers to show up. There was probably screaming. There's no way no one will come and investigate.

At the very least, Crow's able to move in a crisis. So even though he's one very thin emotional line away from screaming and crying he's untangling himself from Rean, forcing himself to his feet and trying to drag Rean up with him. They need to-- They need to clean up. They won't escape walking around all bloody. They'll just have to steal stuff from the dead.]

Come on... We can't stay here.

[personal profile] awakenerd 2018-11-02 05:16 pm (UTC)(link)
[At least high Rean is exceptionally obedient, he gets up and follows Crow easily, chill with... whatever.]
Edited 2018-11-02 17:16 (UTC)

[personal profile] filetofish 2018-11-02 05:21 pm (UTC)(link)
[Great because Crow is not physically capable of forcing it right now. He's just gonna get Rean inside and to the shower, where he'll turn it on on him whether he's willing to get undressed or not. Then Crow's got to steal supplies -- he's stepping over mangled bodies to do it but that part isn't particularly traumatizing, given his history. It's even be a little comforting to see these particular people dead.

He'd be having a meltdown though, if he wasn't running on pure flight response. He can't afford to collapse when he's got to get Rean out of here. So he manages to keep going, gathering clothes and food and various useful things, then coming back to shove clean, unripped clothes at Rean. If he can get Rean dressed and himself cleaned up and also dressed, then they can at least not be actually literally running from the cops.

...Assuming the cops don't arrive while they're doing this.]

[personal profile] awakenerd 2018-11-02 05:25 pm (UTC)(link)
[Rean is even good about being cleaned up and getting dressed, maybe because of the drugs or maybe because Crow's so urgent about it, or maybe both, but he's not difficult. He isn't helpful but he's not getting in Crow's way or delaying things by being a pain.

Luck is on their side, no cops show up by the time they're making their getaway. And as long as Crow can sneak them out of the city they could very well just... Make it. The world's in a messy state, so security is tighter getting into the capital than it is heading out.]

[personal profile] filetofish 2018-11-02 05:38 pm (UTC)(link)
[The thing is, the actual paths in and out of the city are definitely watched. They could go through an underground passage but those are full of monsters that Crow's not up to fighting. So they have to be very sneaky. They have to try to look like normal people when they're both in bad shape and Rean has a spooky demon face.

The best way to do this, Crow thinks, is to stick to the bad parts of town where if people think they're a couple of junkies it won't actually cause notice. From there he finds a place to hang out near a gate, then drags Rean into a group of workers headed outside for some job or another. He stays close, and tries to keep Rean from growling or looking at anyone.

Eventually they do get out. But that's only because when a solider gives them a funny look and starts to ask a question Crow just grabs Rean's hand and bolts. Which will get them pursued but not for very long since they don't look like a threat, they look like scruffy drunks.]

[personal profile] awakenerd 2018-11-02 05:43 pm (UTC)(link)
[At least they're out. And from here, well, there's more choices of places to go that are more... Peaceful, even in the world like it is. At the very least bumming it across the countryside is probably going to be less of a toll, if Crow can hold out long enough to get somewhere remote and sustainable.

Rean at least is, in fact, pretty easy to kidnap and goes along without fuss as long as he's close to Crow, leaning on him whenever they rest.]

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